Tuesday, December 23, 2003
"Adia I do believe i've failed you. Adia I know i've let you down. I hope you know i've tried so hard to love you in my way. It's not easy, let it go..."
-Sarah Mcgulclan(Needth her new Cd)
*Sigh*
So I JUST got back from parasailing today....i've had so much time to think on this trip and it would be so much more easy to enjoy if i didn't feel so guitly... damn real-life drama...damn guilt... and the worst part is... Sadely, it's all a long way from over. It can't turn out good, either, i've decided. The more I think about it...the more I think i should just come clean...then i decided that it would backfire, snowball, and maybe make things worse...but at least I wouldn't feel this guilty. Gur, when did it get this complicated?!?!?!?!
"It's not what you thought when you first begain it. You got what you wanted, now you can hardely stand it though by now you know it's not going to stop..."-
Ammie Mann
(Right now, that song is my theme song)
Parasailing....is like flying....except better because theres nothing but some ropes around you....you can look strait down and see clear into the water...uh...it's perfect. It feels a bit like your just sitting on a swing...a little unnerving knowing the only thing between you and the water is some air thats holding you up in a huge blanket some feet above your head...but after you've been up a few minutes....you don't think about it.
*Guilt*
Damn this.
-Sarah Mcgulclan(Needth her new Cd)
*Sigh*
So I JUST got back from parasailing today....i've had so much time to think on this trip and it would be so much more easy to enjoy if i didn't feel so guitly... damn real-life drama...damn guilt... and the worst part is... Sadely, it's all a long way from over. It can't turn out good, either, i've decided. The more I think about it...the more I think i should just come clean...then i decided that it would backfire, snowball, and maybe make things worse...but at least I wouldn't feel this guilty. Gur, when did it get this complicated?!?!?!?!
"It's not what you thought when you first begain it. You got what you wanted, now you can hardely stand it though by now you know it's not going to stop..."-
Ammie Mann
(Right now, that song is my theme song)
Parasailing....is like flying....except better because theres nothing but some ropes around you....you can look strait down and see clear into the water...uh...it's perfect. It feels a bit like your just sitting on a swing...a little unnerving knowing the only thing between you and the water is some air thats holding you up in a huge blanket some feet above your head...but after you've been up a few minutes....you don't think about it.
*Guilt*
Damn this.
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