Murard Tecsergyn

Is it just me, or is there something incredibly motivating about a giant piece of pie?
It's not permanent at this point. Just amusing.
(I assume most of you know that i'm taking about the backround.)

And I've laid out, again, another Late Night Snack that you may, or may not enjoy before heading off to bed.
Again, it's not finished, but as I've told Kayt- I don't enjoy writing long stories if all they end up doing is losing peoples interest.
In either event, I am I bit tired, and yes a little crazy at the moment, but I rather like snack and think that, should I still like it as much in the morning, I will continue the story and see where it leads.

Can not put in words how much I absolutely love SUBWAY. A lot.
*tattoos the words "I", "Love", and "SUBWAY" (In that order) onto right side of neck.*
Ow.

Was at Harlequins. Am now home.
Won ALL STAR CAST (For Kids'n'co) and SPELVIN AWARD (For the Playhouse mime perfromance I did in IIR; see also all the posts from February, where I talk about IIR alot.)
*Is very thankful*
Saw Trist, and Frankie, Darcy, Rory, and Annze. Actually I sat with Darcy and her family, but not with Trist and Frankie.
*Is happy*
*Is needing very badly to go back to theater in some form*
*Is needing ANNE FRANK to start*
Also saw Boris. Yay.

"And I've seen what happens to the wicked and proud when they decide to try to take on the throne for the crown. And we learn as we age. Wait for nothing and my body still aches. And you take cause they give. Though I love you and my body it leaks like a siv"
-Brand New (Jaws Theme Swimming)

*Sigh*
Decided recently that I spend way too much time online checking blog, and surfing around when I know I should be off doing other things that actually have some importance [or lack there of] in the real world.

"Not that she cared. She cared very little in fact."

Another Late Night Snack for those of you who can't sleep.
Reminds me a bit of Stephen King's DEATH ROOM, even though it's really not the same thing at all.
I think the point is that I have finally written something down, and it should be taken advantage of.

A couple things:

First, I've found that lately the more I think about cutting myhair the more the idea completly terrifies me. I know that eventually I will have to cut it and that's going to suck, but for now I'm trying really hard not to think about it. *Pets long curly hair*


Secondly:
Kevin mentioned to me once, back during the summer, something about a beauty pageant. I entertained the idea for a little bit, but only sarcastically. I mentioned something about it to Elsa while she was here last week, and she asked why I wouldn't want to. And now that I think about...Why not? Not saying that I'm all for the idea of going and walking around in an evening dress and heels, but Elsa seems to really like pageants and what would there be to loose. I was talking to Justin and Peter about it last night and they both voiced their opinion on the subject. They both thought that I would have a pretty good shot at something like that.
I'm very much not the type of girl who likes to do that sort of thing, but at the same time...What would it be hurting me? Elsa said she did her first pageant, not because she thought it was something that she'd be really into, but because Kim (Our old voice teacher, and one of Elsa's closer mentors) thought that it would be good for her.
In no way am implying that I am planning on doing this pageant, but am only thinking about the option of.
On the other hand, it would be in January and by then my hair will be shorter, and darker, and I'll be getting my car, working, and having to take the Spanish and health courses that I am putting off this semester. I'm thinking that'll be about that time that I'll be taking a break form theater, and if I wont have time for theater I'll have no time to be in a beauty pageant.
-
Anyway, Went to Barnes&Nobles today.
Before Kayt got there some man came up to my table and set a drink down and said "Enjoy."
When I took it back to him He told me that he had seen me at Barnes&Nobles a lot. I'm a little freaked out at this point, but thanked him, and told him that I didn'thave any money on me to pay for the drink. He said I didn't have to. At this point Kayt walked in, and I took the drink back over to his table and told him that I couldn't take the drink, but thank you. This is just proof that I am at Barnes&Noble way too much when people start to notice it.

Kayt and I have decided to make gypsy costumes for Halloween this year [...Again]. I am also dressing up as Natalia for my school Halloween costume. [And Natalia is drissing up as me. Heeh!]
We (Kayt and Me) also almost finished writing the chapter of "Dragon" and probably will finish it up next time we meat.

Harlequins tomorrow. Ya! Of course because I'm super excited this means that the day will go by incredibly slow.
I'll have to find something to do to pass the time. Maybe I'll go back to Barnes&Nobles and spend the better part of the day reading STEPHEN KING. Bill (My uncle) said that he really liked THE STAND by Stephan King, and I'm all willing to trust Bill's opinion on books.

Mom will also be coming back tomorrow. IN the mean time Andy is staying with us. (Andy is Weslys son) He's very cool. It's almost like having an older brother...But...No it's not like having an older brother, but he's nice and it's cool to have him around.

Anyway-*Begins to type*
Whoa. Long post. I'll stop now. Yeah.

Oh, and I know now that Kayt is still alive.

So went bowling with Kate, Ryan, Deana, Ashley, and Gus. Was fun. Ended up meeting Peter and Justin there, and getting a ride home with them. I only got home about an hour ago because Justin and Peter (Who can both drive) decided to drive around for a while.
So Yeah, now I'm getting ready for bed, and hopefully going to Barnes&Nobles tomorrow.
Then Harlequins!

So it's almost midnight and I'm hardly getting ready for bed. These are not some good habits that I'm forming.
The concert was good. Was fun. However, I didn't get around to doing my Geometry homework and will have to take care of that tomorrow at lunch...Meaning that I'm not going to be going to lunch with Amanda and Natalie. *Sigh* damn.

hum.
Harlequins is getting closer. Yay. *Needs to be put back into some kind of theater*

I also discovered t'day that our new Drama teacher has taken a special interest in me, and wants me to audtion for the school mellow-drama next week. He has also given 'me an okay on staying in 7th period whenever I want even though I'm not in the class.
I don't know what I did so right to be on his good side...But it must of been something cuz I am.
Then again, Mr.Bowen let me get away with lots as well, so maybe all I really have to do is bounce around the room looking adorable and BAM! That's an automatic in with Drama teacher. I dunno. I just thought it was funny.

Tomorrows Friday. *THANK GOD*
Kayt...R you still alive out there? I haven't been able to call you lately, but there's also been no post on your blog since Tuesday and I'm wondering if I shouldn't send a search team for you or something...
Did they kill you off in band? I hope not. We need to finish our story!!! Call.

It's 9:30 and I'm still at home...Why you ask? I'll explain:

This morning I woke up, stumbled around the house feeling really really sick (Mostly my stomach was pounding, and my muscles were really tight) Took a shower, forced down some oatmeal, threw the oatmeal up, and passed out on my bed until just 20 minutes ago.
Oh. It sounds fun doesn't it.
Anyway, I'm feeling a little bit better now and I have way to much to do at school t'day to be home all day. As much as it sux. Also the weird Al concert is t'night. (Still not to sure who this guys is) But I know no one would believe me if I didn't go and blamed it on being sick (Because I've already tried to back out of it once.) It'll be fun...It's always fun when were tryingt o shove an unseen amount of people into Rafi's car. But much less fun if I black out.

Either way, I woke up this morning thinking I had to go to a/c. *Sigh* I miss Kids-n-co. *Is super of jealous of Dacy, who has already started rehearsals.*

*feeling a bit unhappy with current blog layout*
...Damn it.

-TA DA!!!-
Yes, I understand that this one is not nearly as easy to read as Gracey's (the first one) template was, but the background colors are are a hard color to get much to show up on, and they're the main reason that it's taken me so long to get this thing up.

Ah. Have lotz to post....*begins to type*

*Checks clock*
Holly. Friggin. Crap.
I have school tomorrow.
I better sleep.

I do very much love the CENTER STAGE layout for my blog, but in theory I will have it changed and republished by tomorrow afternoon.
Why Am I doing this if I like my current layout so much, you ask? Boredom? Probably. I also want it to be known that I've become more and more able to create my own templates and I've had the picture that I'm going to use as the new background for a while, and always thought it was pretty.Right now I'm working on resizing it, and making it work to be the background and all that.
I think my point is that I'm not just going to some random website and downloading a template that a million other people have. I'm learning how to do it own my own, and to be quite honest I feel accomplished.
Also I think I'm changing my recent format because it's been brought to my attention a couple times that this one is awfully hard to read and happily the new wont won't face that issue.
Like I said, should be republished by tomorrow afternoon...-ish.
(Unless I get ahold of another picture that I like better...But even then it shouldn't take me longer then by tomorrow afternoon.)

If you've noticed over the past four days I've posted songs on my WORDY SNACKS page that I've thought have been more fitting to my mood then any post I could have written. FINALLY, I have found the perfect song for my reccent mood.

Just got back from Barnes&Nobles with Kayt. Was very productive. Also have finished another short story in my Stephan King book. The mans a genius's.

I also wanted to write that Jim Dorros got an invite from Jan to show up at the Mr.Frank/Kraler audition next week. *Yay!* That's put me in a really good mood.

Oh! Tanner got here t'day. He had to drive all night with his friend Chris, but they got here early this morning...

-Hm. Back to the poin

I"m feeling rather rebellious at the moment, or have been feeling more so reccently.
I'm not sure my rebellious stage is a mood swing either. I think it maybe become just a state of being now that I'm slowly drifting out of my frump from being ripped away from summer. I know this sounds stupid to most, and indifferent to many, but it's what's happening now whether it sounds silly or not.
I know that I can get like that. Where suddenly a different side of my personality takes over, and it's just the way I feel like being right now. I also think it has something to do with the fact that I've been working more and more on ANNE FRANK over the past week, and a bit of her personality finding a way to melt itself into mine.
Hum.

"I could be mean
I could be angry
You know I could be just like you"
-Three Days Grace

*Sigh*
I feel like a should be writing more, and posting, but recently interesting stuff is hard to come by.
As for my short stories and poems...Could the total lack of feeling in my brain (and other varies vital body parts) have something to do with the idea of having to be back in school for the next 10 months?
The great questions of life.

Darcy's on her way. Better go.

For the first time in two years school has started and I haven't had to get up this Saturday morning and go to class and Kids'n'co. I'm feeling incredibly depressed about it. At the same time, however, I guess I will start to teach class with Darcy in a couple weeks, and at least I'll get to see Carol and Kevin and all them while that goes on.



I thought I would be able to sleep in this morning, but apparently not.
So I'm up and I know I should go shower and get dressed and all that, but than again...It's still pretty early, and I'd only being that stuff for lack of anything better to do at the moment.

Gonna go to the mall with Darcy today, and check out the dresses that we can never afford. I think it sounds like a really good plan.

Mom and Wesley are going to cruzes for the day, and Tanner comes in to town t'night. Just so everyone knows...

*Darcy calls*

Oki, I think that's enough of this post for now.

*Slams hand against head**Slams hand against head**Slams hand against head*
Get out Dashboard lyrics, GET OUT OF MY HEAD!!!
*Slams hand against head**Slams hand against head**Slams hand against head*
Ugh. This isn't working.
I dunno about the rest of you all, but I'm going to go to sleep.

-Some good news is that I don't have to be awake until 7:00 anymore because I've dropped my zero period (Whahooo!) Bad news is that I now have no class with Peter.

Elsa is coming into town tomorrow with Tanner...Did I already post about this?

Tomorrow is Friday! Yay! *Lights, fireworks, and other celebratory explosions* This means we've all lived through the first week of school. I don't. Know. How...But we did. And that's the point.
G'Night.

*Yawn*
Tired.
Talking to Alex.
Uhm....Longer post later.
When i've had more then 4 hours of sleep.

*sigh*

Alright. Another day down.
Dropped broadcast journalism today...Which I'm kind of upset about because it was begins to sound like a fun course. OH well.

Oh! Here's ironic for you- I found out Peter is going to be taking 0 Period with me...Only I went and asked if I could test out of the class earlier that morning. I guess I could just not test out of it and still ne in the class, but...
I dunno. We'll see. It's not likely, once ANNE FRANK starts, that I'll like the idea of getting up early in the morning. I don't care who's in the friggin class, i'm going to want/need that extra hour of sleep.

*Yawn*
I dunno. Classes seem to be a little less crazy than yesterday.

Oh! Darcy! We need to go see "marriage proposal" before it closes, too! (Which I think is this weekend.)

Oi.
Day 2.
Need to go see if I can't switch out of Broadcast journalism for something a little less time consuming...But i'll probably just end up taking spanish. (Mom thinks this would be better, I think it's going to be worse.)
No class with Natalia this year. I'm not happy. Hopefully next semester.
Anyway
I'm very tired, and my mom has been on -Flip out- mode ever since Wesely left for his tournoment *Wesely come back*.
Uh...I need the weekend. *Weekend come back*
Guess I ought to get going.

First day of school.
I don't realize I missed everyone so much. It really is mind blowing. Spent a good majority of the day being giddy and hugging people. I'm going to be dead on my feet tomorrow.

Kevin P. Was the first person I saw today as I was heading to 0Period. He's taking government 0Period.

0 Period (Health):
Mr.Pippin. Seems like a very cool teacher. It's going to be a blow off class, though. (when I say "Blow off class" I mean a class that I wont be needing to stress out over when I'm trying to sleep at night.)Which is good because it's extremely early, and we'll all be very tired. No one that I really know in it, but there is really cute senior golfer in the class. *Prettybrowneyedboy*

1st period (Broadcast journalism):
Mrs.Ligner. That class is going to be so much work, but it should be fun. I'll be involved with CTV, but again---A lot of work...Assuming I'll have time to get it all done, and deal with ANNE FRANK at the same time. According to Mrs.Ligner many of us will have to be there after school to work on stories, and be able to use the computers, and because I have a 0Period there's no way I could go in before school to work on stuff.

2ndPeriod (A.P English):
Mrs. Kapoldi's insane. I have no idea how I'm going to get all the work done.

3rd Period (Art):
Another fairly easy blow off class, but fun at the same time because I really do like art. Mrs. Garcia...Ah...She seems alright.

Lunch (SO MUCH FUN):
Rafi took me, Sophia, Natalia, Sophia's little sister, and Whit out for lunch. What was great about this is that it was four girls trying to squeeze into the back of Rafi's car. Hehe. We just ended up going to subway...Rafi had a water gun, and Whit managed to squirt a shot into the drive through window at Subway when he thought no one was looking. Ah. So much fun
("There are no seats belts you guys..."
"That's Okay, we have a seat belt of love." -Natalia and Myself.)
Gus thinks I have a nice butt. Heeh. I just like this because I've been living off of doughnuts and chocolate chip ice cream for the passed two weeks.

Saw Rory at lunch! I'm going to convince Kevin to take me and him one day for lunch, go pick up Darcy and we'll all go do something stupid.

4th Period (World History):
Mrs. Blong seems nice. This is her first year though. Not too sure how long her optimistic attitude will last. HAVE CLASS WITH EVAN! I love him so much. (I stole his sunglasses at lunch today...Because they were blue.) I picked up on the fact that there were going to be a lot of typed papers due in this class. Not really thrilled.

5thperiod (Geometry):
sadly I didn't pay very much attention to anything into his class. Not a good habit to form on the first day. But I did pick up on the fact that it would be a lot of work, and there would be a lot of homework. Crap.

6th Period (Biology):"
Saw Rory again while going to class. He's, ironically, taking chem in the room right next to me. Mrs. High is my teacher. Again...Alot A lot ALOT of work for this class. Apparently an insane amount of homework, and I'm alreadyreally bad at science as it is.

Between this semester and ANNE FRANK...
Yes. I'm very screwed.

Harlequins is coming Up. I think I already know what I'm going to wear so I don't need to shop or anything like that, however I could. Darcy since we don't have mime this weekend I say we do something! (Oh, btw, any news from Kevin?)

Home.
Thank the lord I'm home.
Got my first taste of a hurricane. Which is okay considering the most of my life I've lived in El Paso where there is very little, if not no exciting weather to ever be able to get a taste of.
The wedding was very fun. Pretty.
But not nearly as pretty as the beach and the cottage we were staying at. Basically the whole family (My two uncles, my two aunts, my mom, my grandparents, my four cousins, my two sisters, and me) stayed in a wonderful five bedroom beach cottage.~Nothing is more beautiful than my family.~
I got to see sharks in the ocean. *Yawns* too tired to type about it. If any one is interested enough ask me about it when I see you next.
Also met a very nice guy named Dan (17 years old). Went swimming and hung out with him a lot during the week. We ended up walking to the pier together one night (About a 30 minute walk). He's very good company. Good conversation. According to the whole family he was very good looking, and I agree...But I decided that Dan was not my type romantically.- I think my problem is that I complain about how I want a guy, and I want a guy, and I want a guy...But I never really do. It's more so that I like the idea of being someone's girlfriend to actually being so.
Moving on-
Finished the EYE OF THE DRAGON. Much discussion to be had over this book with Darcy when I see her next. (Darcy! We haven't seen each other in over 2 weeks. This is so weird. Got your message, by the way! I wasn't home yet when you called.) Also have a new found addiction to Stephen King all together. Went out and bought another one of his books, and am 1/4 done with it. More on this later.

-Did I mention that I have to go to school in 8 hours?
(Darcy, where is Rory going to go, BTW?)

Actually, I am very glad to be home.
OH! I did get to go shopping while I was there.
Bought :
-5 really spiffy new shirts. (Prep shirts, Kayt. HEEH!)
-One very cool brown jacket.
-one very cool pair of chocolate brown pants.
-And a black tube top. (Because I'm finding that I'm able to pull that kind of stuff off now.)

I guess school is my next stop.
Not too happy about this. It doesn't seem fair that the summer is already over. I know it is fair. I know that summer only ever lasts two months, but I just don't like it.
*Sigh*
I guess I should be getting to sleep.

"I am heaven sent. Don't you dare forget."
-Brand New

*Sigh*

So we leave tomorrow at 8.
I doubt that I will be able to post.
Since I didn't want to go without leaving out another late night snack, here it is (3rd chapter to "The throne in the castle".) The chapters keep getting a little bit longer, but not to the point of ex-ex.
See you all in a week.

The convenient thing about our Barnes&Noble is that it happens to be close to the mall, Traget, and tons of other things that I can get to with a ten minute walk.
So I went to Barnes&Noble at about 12 today. Got home about 5. Almost beat my of being there all day, but it doesn't really count since I wasn't at Barnes&noble the entire time. Am Now addicted to Vanilla Bean Fraps. Oh so good.
Went to the mall and bought two more CDs, which explains the post prior to this one. While in FYE I bumped into Gus and Anna. (Or it really wasn't bumping into-, It was Gus coming up behind me covering my eyes and saying "Guess who" ina very Gus like voice.) Then walked around for a bit just see if I had missed something that I might want to buy, even though I had been at the mall all day with Kayt yesterday.
Then went back to Barnes&Nobles-yadda, Yadda- More vanilla bean fraps -Yadda, Yadda- I got an insane amount of reading done. All of the reading however, was Stephen King, and mostly out of the book Darcy and Rory have let me borrow. I also picked up a book of short stories by him and read quite a bit out of that. Then mom showed up...Even though I wasn't really ready to go home, and I contemplated buying the book...But figured I would be hardly finishing the "Eye of the Dragon" (The book I got from Darcy and Rory, which is an amazing book- I mihgt add.) by the end of the trip, and so let alone this one. Plus once school starts there will be no time. So I didn't buy it.

*Door Bell rings*
*Sandra standing outside with the Sugarcult CD from Kayt*
HEEEH!
KAYT YOU'RE THE BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(I promise I will treat it like gold. REALLY SPIFFY GOLD THAT PLAYS MUSIC!)

Okay so where was I...AH yes.
Mom picked me up and I went to target and got another CD. And then I came home, and have been here for about an hour doing...Various things.

Cds That I've obtained in the last 28 hours:

• Brand New (Yesterday)
• Dashboard Confessionals (Yesterday)
• Maroon 5 (Today) (Kayt I will burn it for you)
• Taking Back Sunday (Today)
• Some random Cd of up coming artist that came with the "Taking back Sunday" CD (Today, obviously)
• Incubus- Their new one (Today. YAY! So happy!)
• And the sugarcult Cd. (I don't know if that counts because it's Kayts, but I LOVE YOU KAYT!)

I tink I've done pretty good fer myself. Ah. Now I need to go finish packing since our flight actually leaves a lot earlier then I had originally thought.

HEEH! THANK YOU KAYT!

HEEH!
The joy of new music!!!
(More explaination on this later. WHen i'm done being giddy and such.)

I'm feeling very sad. *Sigh* It probably has something to do with the fact that i'm still really very tried, and all my dreams have been incredibly nostalgic lately.

So I registered for school. I don't want to go back. *Puppy face* At all. But really, I'm guessing this is no surprise to anyone. *Shakes face out, resumes the natural "indifferent" face, and continues typing*
Also need to start packing tomorrow, and stop at Barnes&Nobles. Just to pick up some good reading, and possibly a new journal for when we start ANNE FRANK. (The one I bought for the summer is almost finished with, and I doubt would last me more than a week into ANNE FRANK.) I know there was something else I needed to get before I leave...But I don't remember. That's never good.

Ommay picked Kayt up from Franklin today and we went shopping. Didn't buy too much:

• One really cool bikini
• Dashboard CD (A mark, A mission, A brand, A scar)
• Brand New CD (*Gr* I told you Austin!)
• One really cool red AE shirt (Kayt calls it a super preppy shirt...HEEH ^_^)
• And one pair of really cool whatever shorts. (Since I've come to realize my "Ragin' Cajun' shorts are not going to last forever. *Sigh*)

So I still need to get:

• Taking Back Sunday CD.
• 4 more school shirts/ No tank-tops.
• Sunglasses
• New back-pack (since, I've never been really into the trend of holding my books...Though it seems to be what every one else does.)
• And if possible, a new bra (Not that everyone needed to know that...)

Tomorrow will invovle lotz of packing, and making last minute stops here and there. I know we don't leave until Saturday afternoon, but I'd prefer just to get it all done tomorrow.

So Kayt and I also went to go see "CAT WOMEN"...Eheeem, it was about as good as I thought it was going to be...Yeah.

EH EHE! Kayt and I, somehow before the movie, decided it would be really cool to sneak Chinese food into the theater and then sit there and eat during the movie just for the sake of doing so. Eh hehe. Oh it was fun. Yes. Yes, it was.

-Babble Babble-

Somewhere in the past couple days there's been some junk thrown around.

-Babble Babble-

Can't wait to leave for N.C actually. I find myself not having nearly enough to do around here since Camp has ended. And I want to run around on the beach...(minus the sun.) I guess this is because in past years (And when I say "past years", I mean "Before I started theater") I used to go to the beach every summer. However, last summer I didn't go because of SLEEPING BEAUTY (don't get me wrong, no regrets on that choice.) And this year, had it not been for the wedding, I wouldn't be going either, SO I think I'm ready to be there again. Even though the sun and I never really get along.

Oi Oi, post is wayyyy too long.

I should also bring up that I have to go register for school today. *Sarcastic nod* Oh. Goodie.

Ommay ("Mom" in pig-Latin) just gave me $200 to go school clothes shopping with. EHHEEh!
Oh this will be a fun day. (I still have my money from interning that I haven't spent, and an odd $40 that has some how multiplied into $60. However, I plan to spend that $60 on CD's.)

*Puts hands to head*
Ow.
I have the worst headache ever.
Ow.
Not fun.

So ANNE FRANK has been cast. *Sigh of relief* I'm very happy. Very Very much.
We start to rehearse along the beginning of September. Yay.

Í'm slowly becoming an un-night person again. I'm glad. I liked being able to get up early, and not have to be up all night because my body wouldn't really give me any choice.

I got my shots today. You know the funny thing. Shots don't really phase me at all. Thank god.

OH, Before I forget- For those of you who are still up, here's a little Late night snack.

Well, I'll wait till you listen
I wont say a word
To follow your instincts
Just never worked for me
Your silent but strong, (yeah, I'm playing that card)
And your noticing nothing again

Now I'm lying on the table
With everything you said
Keeping mind the way that it felt
When the most I could do was to just blame myself

And I know you know, everything
I know you didnt mean it
I know you didnt mean it
I know you know, everything
I know you didn't mean it
I know you didn't mean it

So, we're talking forever
And you almost feel better
But, betters no excuse for tonight
You see, it's never been enough
Just to leave all you gave up
But, its never good enough to feel right

Now I'm lying on the table
With everything you said
It will all catch up eventually
Well, it caught up and honestly
The weight of my decisions
Were impossible to hold

Today we'll never know
Well I, know you know, everything
I know you didnt mean it
I know you didnt mean it
I know you know, everything
I know you didn't mean it
I know you didn't meant it

Drop everything, start it all over
remember more then youd like to forget

Well I, know you know, everything
I know you didnt mean it
I know you didnt mean it
I know you know, everything
I know you didnt mean it
I know you didnt meant it (remember more then youd like to forget)
I know you know
I know you know...
-Taking back Sunday (I know you know)