Murard Tecsergyn

"Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of which has caught my eye

And roped me in
So mesmorizing, so hypnotizing
I am captivated

I am Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along

And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself

So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intentions
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me so isolated, so motivated
I am certain now that

I am Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along

And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself

So turn
Up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment, fall forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away
So let me slip against the current
and let me slip away

I am Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along

And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself

Slight hope
It dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption"
-Dashboard Confessional (Vindicated)

Tonight is just not gonna let me sleep.
Crap.

"Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of which has caught my eye

And roped me in
So mesmeric, so hypnotizing
I am captivated

I am Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along

And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself

So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intentions
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me so isolated, so motivated
I am certain now that

I am Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along


So turn
Up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment, fall forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away
So let me slip against the current
and let me slip away

I am Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along


Slight hope
It dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption"
-Dashboard Confessional (Vindicated)

*Sigh*
..."I am right-I swear I'm right-I swear I knew it all along"...
Songs like to taunt me when they say the things I can't.
*Sigh*

Crap.

*hums and such to certain songs*
Yeah.

I am so tired, and I want to sleep SO badly but because of the fact that I showered only an hour ago, and it's unbelievably impossible to sleep with wet hair...I'm going to have to stay awake...and wait...For my hair to dry....uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

The lightning outside is insane, and providing a really cool light show.

Shows yesterday went well.
Very proud of all the kids. Good for them too.
Later Darcy and I went to go see Marriage is murder at the Playhouse. We spend WAY too much time at the Playhouse.

"what's the point of leaving? We're just gonna have to be back here in 10 hours!"
-Darcy

I also didn't sleep very well last night because of the fact that I stuffed myself with sugar very late at night...Not one of my smarter ideas.

Two more shows today, and cast party. It's just that much more time I'll be spending at the Playhouse. Oh. Joy.

We do,however, get a break monday through Friday this week, and that'll be nice.
Natalia called and mentioned something about getting together Monday, and that sounded fun so I'll have to call her back about that.

So after class t'day Darcy, Alej, and I decided (after pouring over ALL the options.) to go out to eat and then to Fahrenheit 9/11. Lots of fun.
We ended up eating at a restaurant called MACARONI GRILL (which did not serve macaroni, I might add)...And we got to sit at the bar. That was cool. However, I think I may have given our waiter the idea that I'm a total alcoholic. *smiles evily* O well. The movie was good. OH! And we saw Robert, that was cool. AH. I just got home now. I say we do stuff like this more often!!!

Uhm.
Production camp show tomorrow.
I also plan on going to see Marriage is murder later that afternoon. Uhm, I think that's it for now.

*yawn*
*Stretch*
...So tired...

A long mysterious red scratch has appeared suddenly on my back and I have no clue where it came from. But I do know that it's very painful and I can't lay on it...So instead of going to my bed and sleeping (Which is something I'm finding I'm doing less of) I have somehow managed to place myself here. In front of my computer.

::shakes head::

Mommy and Wesley leave tomorrow for San Antonio tomorrow. Mommy has placed in my room another $50 for any misc stuff I might be needing over the weekend. So...Did we suddenly become rich and I don't know it???

*Yawn*
*Scratches head*
::Blink::

Production camp show opens this Saturday, and Marriage is Murder closes the same day. Darcy, I feel like you, Alej, and I should go see that show together if we do nothing else before she leaves.

*Yawn*
::Blink::
*Scratches head*
I have also been drafted into the kinder camp show as the narrator...Uh...Just some general knowledge.
::Blink::
OH!
Darcy, Alej, and I managed to get to Keva Juice and back today for lunch-But tragically we died in a horrible accident only 21some feet from the PlayHouse. It was very sad.

Tori: Yeah, Tristan you did good...But for some of the scene we could only see your tush.
Me: UGH! How dare you be a bad stand-in Trist!!!
Tristan: What? You don't like my tush?
Me: I've married you three times...Of course I like you tush.
(Ah hehe. Amusing.)

So the week is creeping by slowly. Er...I guess this is a good thing?
Mommy and Wesley are going to be out of town this weekend (they leave Thursday) and moms hired this chick named Natalie to check up on us and drive us places. I still have yet to meet her, but still. I thought the idea of a chauffeur sounded interesting.

Did A whole bunch driving today. Which is good.
Wesley is gone until tomorrow, but hopefully him and I will go driving around town on some type of mission when he gets back.

*Yawn*

OH! Spider-man 2 comes out WEDNESDAY!

Wow. SO I can't believe it's almost already been a month. Summer is going too damn fast. SLOW THE F*** DOWN SUMMER. However, for those of you who don't know, now that I have my permit everytime a month passes i'm just that much closer to getting my car/lisence. This is a good thing. Yes.

Camps are going well. Like I said- It's all gone by fast. To the best of what I understand there will be a week where we will have a break before we start the next semester...This means i'll have a whole week to kill of nothing to do.
*Sigh*
Uhm...think...think...think.
No i'm pretty sure thats it.
I haven't talked to Peter in a while. This makes me sad.

THe weather outside is crazy right now. SUper windy.
Uh. More later.

Oww.
3 hour bike ride.
2 hour walk.
...soooo much pain.

Liz's Parents are here!
LIZ'S PARENTS ARE HERE!
YAY!!!!
*Jumps up and down in a giddy manor*

I am through
'Cause I waited for this all my life and then another day
Now that you have found another way to use your favorite puppet
I will dance to please the puppeteer and say
Make it so
-Matt Caplan

Ah.
I had so much cake and ice cream. I'm gonna be one big bubble in the morning.
However, it would have killed tradition if I hadn't of had any of Sandra's home made cake so the point is that I may be a bubble...BUT I'M A BUBBLE OF TRADITION.

Lorraine, Mom and I had an appointment with Mr. Richmond (therapist) this morning. Despite the fact that I don't think I need to go Mom said it's good for Lorraine since she's taken my parents divorce the hardest and that we all need to go as a family. SO yeah. I went. Mr.Rishmond said he admired me because he can tell that I have a strong personality. I think it's quite funny.

We then went to Keva juice which is soooooo goood. *Sips smoothie*
Mommy and I have come up to pick up some paper work and then go to get my permit. Mom says if I get it I can drive to class. (With her in the car of course.)
Also, we're celebrating Lorraine's Birthday t'night along with Sandra's (Kayts mom) It should be fun.

OH! And Liz's parents are in town from Europe today. I have no idea how get in touch with them, but I trust that they'll find us.

Needless to say I have taken the first half of the day off from camp. Obviously.

Going to try and get my permit tomorrow. Will I actually get it this time? I don't know- But at least it's one more attempt closer to attaining it.
Camp went pretty well today. Ale has joined us. Yay. Also, I ate well over my limit of sugar in FASTBREAKS early on in the day and managed to become very hyper. Wow. I'm scary when I get like that.
Huh. Feels like a Friday.
Next week is tech week, so yeah.
Uh.
I'm in a bitchy mood right now. That's never good.

Class has been going well. I guess there's not much more to say about it other then that.

All my writing lately has been very NFG inspired.
more *Lyrical-junk*

Are we back at the beginning
Haven't we been here before
I'm exhausted you're a little more
I want something you don't have
I'm a little woried but
I know it still goes on without you here
I know it still goes on without you here

I am through
'Cause I waited for this all my life and then another day
Now that you have found another way to use your favorite puppet
I will dance to please the puppeteer and say
Make it so

Little whispered secret answers to the core of my dismay
Echo in the prayers I never say
I am shattered
You are whole
It's a little scary how it all can still go on without you here
I know it still goes on without you here


But I'm sick of telling this story
To those who cannot understand
Always a step below glory
In your hands

Now we're back at the beginning
Haven't we been here before
Everyone's afraid of what's in store
I know something you don't know
I know it still goes on without you here
I know it still goes on without you here
-Matt Caplan (Favorite puppet)

Ah. What A day.

Mime show went well. Gave Jan Matt's #. *Crosses fingers*
Thought I should put that I went to see both "Stepford wives" and "Garfield" last night. One with Natalia. We've decided that Im'going to spend the night at her house one night and we will finish construction on our movie. Not sure when this will be, but it'll happen. AH. Good stuff.

Went with Darcy and Rory today to both malls.(Sunland and Ceialo Vista.) *envies Darcy for her ability to be able to drive...Legally* (But thank god one of us can.) That was fun.
OH OH OH! I bought the -Best of GREENDAY- CD and SWTICHFOOT (Gr. Austin GR. *Smiles big*) I still have $40 left...But considering I started out with $70 I'm a little mad at myself. I gotta quite going to FYE.

Wesley is back. I'm happy about it. Mommy made us a nice dinner...And then I went on a walk. But the point is he's home.
I'm going to get my permit Tuesday...er..."Going to get my permit" Tuesday. *knocks on wood*
::Blink::
Interning is going well. I get to work Lights for the production camp show and I am THRILLED. Yeah. The little kids show we performed Friday and it went very well. New session starts Monday.

AH. I have also decided that sometime in the near future I am going to rent "independence day" and watch it. Just a bit of general information.

Ice cream trucks are the most annoying things. Ever.

Class t'day was pretty fun. Darcy and I got to work with some of the kids on their characters and I think we did it rather well.
Uh...had more to type.
-Happy birthday Austin and Sharon-

So Natalia called t'night. We have decided on A.) Going to see "Stepford wives" on Friday, and B.) That Richard Gear plays a good scumball character; See also "Chicago"

Ah haha!
While I was joggin down [Forgot the name of the street] I ran into Matt...AGAIN!
"Twice in one day? Why can't you leave me alone?"
"Because I don'wanna"
Ah. I just thought it was particularly amusing.
Ahhh. Good stuff.

Ends up we're not going for a movie after all. O well.
*Puts on right shoe*
The weather has gotten nice and-
*Puts on left shoe*
I think I'm going to take advantage of it and go on a bit of a jog.

Mummy has randomly decided that we should go to a movie t'night.
I really wanna see "Stepford wife" but it doesn't come out until Fri. Poop.

IN other news- I've been stuck at home all day. Would have gone walking this afternoon but it's crazy how hot it is and I don't like the heat. At all. Ever.
Have had lotz of reflection time,though, which has been a good thing. Also lots of nap time. (Also a good thing.)However, I think I'm ready to go back to the Playhouse now. I get too bored on the weekends.

Went walking up to the store just now, and ran into Matt [Del Val]! He's driving...Bum Bum BUM!
"Try not to kill people Matt."
"HEY! I'm a good driver..."
I've got to say it was very nice to see him. 'S a good guy. Yes. Ah. Miss ya Matt.

"I think I'm breaking out
I'm going to leave you now
Theres nothing for me here, it's all the same
And even though I know
That everything might go
Go downhill from here, I'm not afraid

Way away away from here I'll be
Way away away so you can see
How it feels to be alone and not believe
(Feels to be alone and not believe)
Feels to be alone and not believe anything

You can't stop me now
You can't hold me down
You can't keep me here, I'm on my way
I've made it this far now
And I'm not burning out
No matter what you say, I'm not afraid

Way away away from here I'll be
Way away away so you can see
How it feels to be alone and not believe
(Feels to be alone and not believe)
Feels to be alone and not believe anything


Letting out the noise inside of me
Every window pane is shattering
Cutting up my words before I speak (Cutting up my words)
This is how it feels to not believe


Way away away from here I'll be
Way away away so you can see
How it feels to be alone and not believe
(feels to be alone and not believe)
Feels to be alone and not believe anything"
-YellowCard (Way away)

Had first day of camp. Lotz of Kids. Most stand outish one was named Alex. He'll be fun to work with going by the way he's already impressed Shaunna Darcy and myself. Jimmy is in class, so is cassie. *Yay!* I love Cassie.